This being taken from a relative's blog can't be any more right, You never fully appreciate something until you're about to lose it/it's lost. With 3 days left till the new year, I just realised that maybe 2009 was not as bad as I thought. Sure if given the chance to relive it I'd avoid certain paths or change the way I handled myself or the issues that came up along the way but I have no regrets. I think regrets stand in the way of most if not all happiness. If I didn't then, I think it's pretty safe to say that I've come to embrace everything that have been thrown in my direction in the past year, good and bad. As this year progresses into the next, it is not really lost. It's something I can always look back to and seek comfort in especially when I notice for myself how far I've come as a person, as a friend, as me on the whole. 2009 you will be missed if only for all the lessons you have brought.
On that note, some people from your past should really remain in your past. The confusion they bring for appearing without any warning is enough for me to just wish I could disappear and not have to deal with it. Somehow despite all that I appreciate the company and the conversation. Unfortunately I've been somewhat disappointed in the appearences of ppl from the past be it upon myself or others because of the undesired affects they bring... mostly to me. But good things come out of it too... I'm just sorry the person I've been missing for so long isn't the person that has been trying to reach me now. If anything I'm happier that the 3 years have ended and the relationship has run its course because if that is the person I am still to be with I will never be happy or content. Regardless, I still miss us, I miss the old you and I wish things were different. I wish what you said drunk holds true and somehow I wish I can still have faith in you. You still earned a special place and that place is solely yours deep in the crevices of this beating thing I call my heart (omg the drama in today's post lol), I hope you manage to live to the expectations of being there. I may miss others now too but you broke the mould that allowed me to let others in and for that J, thank you.