Funny how every time an unexpected phone call is received, my world is turned upside down momentarily. A tiny part of it is also due to the fact that these calls seem to occur at ungodly hours. Mostly though, it's the company and the conversation that comes with them. I suppose I don't mind walking on my hands for awhile. Shake things up a little. Then when I'm over the shock it's all back to normal. I still can't help smiling at the things I've been told, despite all that I know that I like things the way they are now. Your feelings for me, you should deal with. Pouring your heart out to me like I've never heard you do even while we were together for 3 years, is not going to change the fact that things ended and that was the consequence of your choice. The good times were awesome but sometimes when you feel like the fight is over, you move on. But it's still nice to know despite the arse-y demeanour you've been throwing in my direction, lies someone who actually might still have feelings for me. It's flattering, even though the confession came under a very heavy influence of alcohol.
That said, if you need a friend you know where to go. I wish I can convince you that despite the heartache you brought, beneath all that bravado you're a great person. Stop thinking you're going to be alone. Self fulfilling prophecy much? Anyways, enough bout you for now. You just made me realise how much I miss you. I wish you all the best and hope the new year brings you good things. I'd like to think of the J I knew before and think of only the good times like you agreed to. I hope you do the same. Meh I'm sucha sap. But that call made my day/night while at the same time left me a lil worn out. Although, it's nice to know you only think much of me when you're drunk. Thanks =p.. meh on duty tonite... Going to kick back before I hafta go on my rounds. One more day left. Savour and embrace 09 ppl =]