THE ONE AT SUB ZERO
I'm friggin freezin my a** off here. I've also just discovered that my wednesdays would mean 9am STAT lectures, a very long and exhausting 3 hour gap and then two hour long lectures after, but they're in the same slot. YES you read it right I have a clash and to make things even better/worse they're the supposed modules for my majors. I foresee very long and boring wed just me and my laptop doin our thing at the refactory... fark. STAT 1008.. seriously what was I thinkin?
I feel like I'm dying a little more inside. I keep thinking of ways to revive myself, and I do it... if only for the short term gain. Then I'm back to square one. Today hasn't been any better. I was sorta snubbed by someone's significant other heh RUDE CAN? ... it's been ages I don't have his number and I've moved on plus I don't think I ever cared for him as much as I did well .. yeah as much.
I need a direction, a goal, something to keep me occupied something to achieve and most of all I need reassurance. I'm lost as always in most posts.. I'm always lost .. this time I dunno prolly much worse. 'Specially when I feel like I lost something truly important, something I cared about and was and still am willing to sacrifice for. Drop of a hat I would. But life is such. Somethings are worth the wait, but I don't know I think I've waited long enough, I'm wasting away.
Blogging is spose to distract me from the above 'condition' so moving on... gawd can this place get any colder!!! I think I need to set goals for myself .. yes I should. No running away from it this time. I've gotta stick it. Keeps me occupied plus works out for a better me. Just the inspiration is gone. It's just me now. No one else. It has always been just me cept previously the added support was comfortable, something I got used to, something I yearn and wish I could have back.. well maybe... if it's my boomerang, it's my boomerang nothing can throw it off course. Right then.. back to makin plans for me... I cant wait to go home again .. meh