Friday, June 23, 2006
THE ONE WITH ALL THE CRYING
I'm updating.. sorry it took awhile. I've been here a little over a week now. Still trying to settle in and get used to the cold weather. As the title suggest, I really have been cryin bucket loads. The homestay hosts I have, have been real patient with me. Especially with Sumitra (the lady of the house, and no she isn't Indian, she's Thai). She knows how close I am with mom n dad, I mean come on, at 20 this is my first time away from home. I reckon it'll take awhile for me to adjust. So many others have done it before me and they've survived. I'm no different- I hope.
It's actually 8.32am here. I was up at six, couldn't sleep, felt like I wanna go home. I reckon that's just homesickness kickin in. Anyways I'm spose to be goin out today with a couple of other Singaporean students in my batch. At the moment I really don't feel like it. Can't bail out last minute though.
I wanna update more but I'm seriously out of it. I'm sorry. I'll get back online soon enough all raring to go yeah? love you guys so much. Keep in touch and keep me happy ok?
3:06 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
at the airport now... so the post is kinda rushy...
imma miss u guys back home.. the mini flood i caused was purely unintentional... blame the sister for cryin.. :(
Pray for my safety and success, I shall be back home with you guys soon enough. Take care of yourselves.. I love you guys.
Sharki3
4:17 AM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Letter/(s)
Darling Tara,
Yeah that's how I'm addressed on your blog all the time isn't it? Just doin you the same favour :D It took awhile for me to come up with this, coz I wanted it to be as close to perfection as it could be. However, excellence doesn't require perfection .. ok ok this one a bit off tangent. Gettin back on track, I think the 11 yrs we've shared as friends cannot be simply summed up. You can't just describe them, much less sum them up in one word. Calling them great would still be an understatement.
I'm hopin we can still hang out on the 12th. That's right, just a day before I head off. But if we can't we can always meet up at the airport or earlier on the day itself yeah? Every single time I hang out with you is special in its own way. Doesn't matter that we're doing nothing, or just kickin back in messy room or your very doraemon filled one =p, or even if there's utter silence between us. It just feels comfortable like that. I think the company more than make up for whatever it is that was lackin.
You're an inspiration and a motivation and proof that friendships can grow stronger with time. We started of as acquantainces and are now best friends. You make the most sense, always the one givin me a rappin on the head when I get a lil stupid at times (both figuratively and physically =p). You're practical and full of dreams and I wish you'd one day achieve them and I'll be right there sharing your happiness with you. Just like how you're standing by me now, not wanting to get in my way and holding me back from pursuing a great adventure in the big unknown.
As for now I can't thank you enough for encouraging me to pursue this journey that I'm about to embark on. I wish you were with me every step of the way and I guess if you could you would yeah? But we'll keep in constant touch... promise? And work on that idea of visiting me, please? You did sorta promise :P
I can keep goin with this, but I shall end here. I think, no wait, I know that you already know what I'm gonna say, even if I didn't mention it. I shall miss u terribly, the flyin pigs n our friend John included ;) I love ya (once again... I'm straight.. pls ppl) and do remember to send me those sealin wax so I can write u endless letters. This isn't goodbye, it's just a beginning of a challenge you and I are ready to take.
Always,
Shaheera
6:24 AM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Letter/(s)
Dear Jez,
I have so many things to tell you right now, I don't even know where to begin. There's so much that I want you to know, it's all a big mess in my head. Like a tangled web, strings all in knots, just waiting to be undone.
Let me just begin by saying how thankful I am to you. For the past three years or so, knowing you has brought about certain changes in me, as minute as they are. I have more days where I feel real good bout myself, days where I believe no one can get in my way and those days exists because you're right there next to me, in school or otherwise, cheering me on. I appreciate having you believe in me when I lost faith in myself. It means so much, saying that I appreciate it isn't even enough.
As I sat on the bus home after you alighted yesterday (esp after hearing that sarah maclachlan song), I stared out the window regretting those times when you asked me to hang out and I bluntly pushed u away. I guess there's no time or need for regrets. But just so you know, those times I pushed you away were the times I spose I needed to have you around most. I think you know that too, coz you didn't back down. If we couldn't hang out there you were on the phone trying to reach me. That is why my friend, we're besties.
We wouldnt know where the future will bring us but here's hoping we'll still be in touch and not lose what we share. You're irreplacable Jez. No one else can know so much bout me in such a short time like you did. I wish you all the best in whatever you do. And yes, I'll give u my addy so don't forget to do the same. I can't tell you enough how much I'll miss you, miss having you around for comfort. But yeah, we'll always be a phonecall or an email away. You take care. I love you loads ( pls ppl.. I'm straight).
Yours Always,
(the person u nicked)Sharkie
9:42 AM
Monday, June 05, 2006
THE ONE THAT IS LONG OVERDUE
Seeing as to how I've been gettin very emotional msgs on here. The next coupla posts are written as , well i spose u can call them letters, to ppl. In absolutely no order to how important the person is to me. Coz trust me, you're all important. Whether you are mentioned or not. The thing bout writing letters is this, most of the time I end up not sending any. Why not email you say? Coz it's not personal. My blog is like my diary, I'm letting people into some of my thoughts. NOt really the darkest deepest secrets.. but it's things that sometimes I don't think I can bring myself to say in person.
So anyhow don't complain. The next few posts are gonna be different for a bit. For now I gotta go.