THE ONE WITH THE BESTIES
I'm used to bein a funcken biatch sometimes, too used to it that I don't even realise it... You're noddin ur head in agreement now aren't ya? Well whatever. You're entitled to your own opinion. So bein the absolute biatch that I am, I'm thankful to the two most unbiatch -if that's even a word... and yeah biatch isn't even a real word ok ok moving on- like person (well with the exception of one.... you'll know who along the way) who's kept me grounded - not that i'm famous or anything, although FYI my name does mean well-known or sumthin close to that in arabic- and gave me reality checks as and when i needed them.
Right, this is such a change from the last post. But in that one I was frustrated... yeah yeah with all the funcken appearing here and there i know it was evident. But did it make you call me and tell me that even if it's just goin for some class, it's still a way for you not to get cooped up? Did it make you feel like you should comfort me even if it's via sms? It didn't did it? Well it made Tara did all that. I'm not saying if it didn't make you do all that you're not worth my time or anything. I'm just saying that's just how Tara is. Go ahead and blame it on the fact that she's known me for a freakin long time, i don't funcken care. I appreciate the fact that even though we see each other only on Saturdays, or that she's way smarter than me, she bothers to wanna know. She takes time to listen to me, even though she might be busy.
Academically, she motivates me, something not a lot of people can do, not even myself. For that I'm grateful. If you're reading this woman, I know at times I don't show enough appreciation and I may come off like I don't care. But honestly, I do. Maybe sometimes, bein as stupid as I am, I just dunno how to show it.
On the other hand, even if this biatch (yeah, you got your answer now) doesn't call me as often, I see her in school every single funcken day.... yeah Jez I'm talkin bout you. You may call me a biatch -which i very much agree with by the way- but i know deep down woman, you still wuv me ... LMAO!! I know sometimes I'm not the nicest person to you, i might rat on you or tell you things straight to your face... I'm really sorry... But i seriously funcken hope that you understand that you're one of the few people I can be honest with.
I can never see myself in any other way than I already do right now, but thanks for trying to make me think otherwise. Sometimes I just can't think of me the way you do, but knowing that you meant every single word is enough. I don't have to belive it myself. There're times when I just think I can't get thru to you, but I know eventually even if i might vent it out, on you nontheless, all that anger is short lived. You and me are at the opposite ends of the world but strangely we do have similarities, I guess opposites do attract.
Tara and Jez I know this is corny and kinda cheesy (hey... now i'm feelin like some nachos.. right... back to what i was sayin) but I appreciate everything you both have done for me. I suck and showin my appreciation but know that I do appreciate it. I WUV U BOTH (FYI: i'm as straight as an arrow)!!!
And of course SORRY if in anyway, i've hurt any of you or somehow betrayed you, whether knowingly or not.... LoL most of the time unknowingly.. since I can be kinda ditzy... Here's where I end...
Your Bestie (or not),
Shaheera aka Shark or Sharky or whatever it is that you both call me.
JE SUIS PERDU
The funcken holidays are here. Can't wait for school to funcken start. Why cuss when it's the hols? Coz I'm stuck at home with funcken loads of shit to study and I funcken can't. I'm trying, swear to god I am and I'm praying I'll get through it. 1 FUNCKEN MONTH of staying at home!! Yay!! The Holidays.. Funcken BLISS!! NOT!!
The lack of updates is just coz I really couldn't be bothered. There's nothing much to blog about. I seriously can't get over the funcken fact that I'll be staying home this entire FUNCKEN MONTH!! There, finally said it. There's this endless tirade of trying to get me to clean up my room... NEVER!! I won't do it till the exams are over and done. No way I'm wasting precious time cleaning up my funcken room, when I'm gonna hafta funcken study. Just like right now, I'm gonna stop this entry to go and funcken study.
Aight signing off, can't funcken take this. NEED TO STUDY.. come on people.. say it with me:
SHAHEERA NEEDS TO FUNCKEN STUDY!!
courtesy of Hanom's SN: SUPPORT BACTERIA, IT'S THE ONLY CULTURE SOME PEOPLE HAVE