Friday, February 27, 2004
Hey..long time no blog. Anyway these coupla weeks, days i dunno months... i just feel... different. I'm beginning to see the people around me - i guess it's safe to say my friends n maybe my family as well- in a different light. It's nothing against them really. It's just that, I just see them all from another angle. The thing that troubles me most is that, the different angle i see them from isn't always that good. I hate myself for it, honestly, because I've always been the one who try to see the good in people no wonder how they annoy me so that I won't hate them or anything. The reason behind this is that you never know when and who you might need and it's always good not to make enemies. So yes no matter how i seem to be the bitch or the one who thinks that girl is plain annoying, I still try to see the good in them because we're not perfect. Not even me. So when this thing came over me and I see people differently all of a sudden, not to name names.. infact almost to everyone, I jus feel strange and guilty. I find some of them over the top, a little too showy, being annoying and the list goes on. I know people might view me this way as well but I just can't stop myself now. Little things that they do will affect me and yes I manage to cast that aside and accept these people for who they are coz they are afterall, the people whom I wanna share my thoughts and feelings with, but still I can't explain this sudden change.
Goodness, it's just so hard to understand. Even I don't understand myself. I always take a guilt trip when it happens but it still doesn't stop it from happening. I'm really sorry to these people all of them. I hope I can do something bout it... I really do but as of now, it's still gonna be the way it is. I love you all.... I do so yeah.. I gotta go now.
THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT SAY WHAT YOU WANNA HEAR, EVEN ON A RAINY DAY THEY'LL TELL YOU THE SKY IS CLEAR.. WHEN U REALLY REALLY LOVE SOMEONE AM I RIGHT WHEN I SAY THAT YOU WANT THEM NEAR, AND IF YOU CAN YOU EVEN WANNA TELL THEM THINGS THAT THEY WANNA HEAR
6:06 AM
Sunday, February 08, 2004
Haven't been blogging for some time... anyhoo.. am in school right now... free period.. suppose to be doin some work but slackin like hell... im still havin sore throat..arghh..... it's so annoying. When i logged on to this particular comp im using right now.. i bloody hell got a shock.. hahah when it was all set up right smack in the middle of the screen was a wallpaper of WILLIAM HUNG.. yes that guy everyone is so HUNG over from American Idol.. hahah ..cute.. anyhoo i guess that's it for now I have to go complete my work.