Went to Sentosa yesterday.. ISLAND LIFE I LOVE IT.... hhahaha had fun for the treasure hunt.. but the runnin around hurt my already painful back alot..nontheless i had my fun.. The people I never talk to before in school are actually quite friendly and I actually talk to them. There's also one whom I thought was real arrogant but I saw another side of this person and found this person so so cute hahahah...
I wont say much bout that... hehe im still not confident bout anything but all i can say is i had fun and sentosa is still the same and oh yeah they're settin up 7-11 at PALAWAN BEACH... I'd love to go there again one of these days.. it'd be fun.The thing is the stuff there are kinda expensive...ah well we'll see. Gotta go for now.
~~~LELAP HARUM DI TAMAN... BIAS MAKNA YANG TERPENDAM...ALAS TONGGAK HARAPAN~~~ (you guessed it... sheila on 7 yet again)
Today was pretty fun...The 15th student council was such a show hahah .... they were like marchin down the steps with this NAZI march music in the background.. and then all of a sudden one of them went "Somebody change the music" and the broke on in a dance with the song IM TOO SEXY playin in the background... that was soo cool.. I didn't know OI took the occasion as a very formal one... In secondary school it was never as formal yet as fun as this... Times like these.. I really regretted droppin out as a council intern. For now I gotta go.. Gotta study for tomorrow's Econs test.. oh yeah and today's nigel's birthday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGEL!
~~~IM WALKIN AWAY .... FROM THE TROUBLES IN MY LIFE.. IM WALKIN AWAY... TO FIND A BETTER DAY~~~
Had in-line skating lessons in school yesterday.. We were suppose to end at 5.30pm but i end up reachin the bus-stop at like 6.00pm. I reached home and totally knocked out. Anyway I think i did pretty well, it was the first time in my entire life that i ever skated. I took to rather well, everytime I think I was gonna fall i managed to balance myself. I was skating around and after teachin us new skills in between and askin ask to practise, our coaches ( teenage boys i think bout my age, they're all chinese but one or two is kinda cute hahahaha) had to assess us and decide if we can continue to skate around or to keep redoin the skill taught till he is satisfied. I was the first person in my row to get picked my this cute coach hahah only his eyes abit small lah no need to smile already look like slits... hahah Anyway he told me to repeat the stuff taught... he asked me to move four steps and tried touchin my toes... then he asked me to try it again and he went ok good very good, now jump... haha basket right? haha... The second assessment came and I was sitting right in front of him he couldn't see .... coz he was goin.. where's that girl i pick jus now ah.. and seekin for me high and low.. he mistook my friend for me and my friend went "you blind ah" hahaha.. then he finally saw me. So he asked me to try how to stop as taught earlier and i was sittin on a platform so it was hard to get off coz im in skates.. . my friends wanted to hold on to me so i can do it safely and he said... "never mind... come (he extended his hand) jus put down one foot and make it parallel like this" hahah cute right? well he held on to me all the way until we reach the open area which is like right in front and then i showed him what i've learnt. HAHA... BLISS.....
I was skatin well after all the assessments and stuff... not fallin one bit..and I was thinkin that it was too good to be true coz all begineers fall and then learn from that.. and i wasn't fallin at all..... and then it happened. I fell flat on my back..... before that my hand itchy... i went to unbutton my helmet so it came of after my head hit the ground.. or was it before? I dunno lah all i know was i was suddenly on the ground and that coach of mine was holdin on to my helmet... but i was proud of myself... after lying down for abit i finally stood up... without any help... not coz of pride or anythin but u know, when u fall u pick yourself up. Right now im achin' all over...from my neck down..I didn't run during fitness coz i hurt bad.. so i was on the bicycle in the weights room.... cyclin but not goin anywhere....I do hope i feel better...
I tried pukin after a meal jus now but it didn't work... will try again soon... I've got some serious weight issues... i mean ppl who keep complainin bout their weight most of the time are actually thin... goddamnit get glasses and take a look at yourself in the mirror... I think apart from that I'm gonna swim and as much as i hate joggin maybe i'll try doin that twice a week... who knows... i might actually lose weight.. i mean along with cuttin my food content or sumthin like that.. Like i've said time and time again.. I'm sick and tired of people commenting about it and i keep puttin idea off, of plannin a time table and stuff.... Maybe it's about time i started.. Now my homework is waiting.. so I gotta go... Anyway I do hope things go well with sista INda and us all... everytime i wanna sms her or sumthin like that I jus pull back, I'm so afraid it might aggrevate things.. sigh.. I guess I shouldn't push her and let time take it's course
~~~JADIKANLAH AKU PACARMU....KAN KUBINGKAI S'LALU INDAHMU...JADIKANLAH AKU PACARMU... IRINGILAH KISAHKU~~~ (sheila on 7 rawks)
In class right now, about to have History presentation. Thank god my group's already done that... save us the trouble of goin up.. I'm happily usin the lab's comp. wat bliss. THe teacher's here i gotta go see ya.. will post another soon.
~~~LUPAKANLAH SAJA DIRIKU BILA ITU BISA MEMBUAT MU KEMBALI BERPIJAR DAN BERSINAR SEPERTU DULU KALA~~~go sheila.. go sheila...go ( sheila on 7)
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
There are lotsa things goin on right now... I really don't know which to address first. Anyways... something very relieving...Mr Raj postponed our Econs test from tomorrow to next Thursday... such bliss.. anyway it's his birthday today. HAHA I wish it was your birthday everyday if things goes this well... haha... Oh and my classmates and friends out there who noticed that i've been keepin quiet these days... don't worry about it. I'm sorry if i haven't been crackin jokes like I used to...I will be your joker again one day, jus be patient, meanwhile there's always Nigel to break your legs... But thanx for understanding my silence tho'...
The situation that is goin on right now is really affecting me i guess, and i suppose it's gone hard on me.. maybe on the other party as well but i feel mine as bein pretty bad so far. Maybe coz I was rather close to the other party unlike the rest of them. I miss this friend of mine... I miss talkin to her, even if sometimes there're things that I think are not for me to hear but still she did talk to me. I dunno why this affected me so bad till I actually breakdown yesterday.... Silly? Maybe.... I guess at the start of this situation when I was angry and all.. it was jus to hide my disappointment and whatever sadness that I felt being treated that way.. but I don't mind one bit these days (as of today) because I know I respect her and treat her as my own older sister... and if time permits things will be ok.. tho' not as usual but yeah i suppose it'll be ok.
I jus miss her that's all... Sometimes people make mistakes when they don't realise it and since i'm human as well, I'm not perfect.....so yeah I suppose i have commited some mistakes and not realise it.. for that I'm sorry.. All the parties involved are my friends and including me... So I'm not gonna take sides.. not even my own... I'm still thinkin what I've done wrong and if so how I can change to be a better person after learning and experiencing thru' this... hence takin the benefit of the doubt. If I did do anything wrong to anyone I'm sorry... like i said we don't see our flaws unless someone presents it to us right smack in the face... and when that happens, I don't suppose it's very nice but still u can learn from it.
All I'm sayin is... I do care.. like it or not.. and I want things to go back to norm.. even if it won't be the same at least the situation will be fine... I miss u ppl... especially u... u know who u are.. i know i might have not been replyin sometimes... but that doesn't mean i lose interest... it's just that i am still tryin to get use to this new life and sch and stuff.. n I'm sorry reallly sorry if that offended you. I'm sure u know what I mean right now... you read my SMSs... well for now i gotta go... this is too overwhelming... i'm chokin up...
~~~EVERYBODY NEEDS A LITTLE TIME AWAY... I HEARD THEM SAY.. FROM EACH OTHER.. EVEN LOVERS NEED A HOLIDAY... FAR AWAY... FROM THE ONES THAT THEY LOVE... HOLD ME NOW I REALLY WANNA SAY I'M SORRY AND I JUS WANNA LET U KNOW... AND AFTERALL THAT WE'VE BEEN THRU' I WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU ... I PROMISE YOU...~~~
Nowadays life can get real frustrating.... so many homework, so little time... sigh... well gotta go
All kinds of people exist in this world... and sadly, none are perfect. Most of us see the flaws of others... but seldom do we see ours first hand.. till someone comes up to us and presents it to us right smack in the face. I guess for now that's all i can say.... im still organising my thoughts on this topic. so uhm yeah i'll continue some other time
IM ONLY HUMAN.. FLESH AND BLOOD I'M MADE.. HUMAN BORN TO MAKE MISTAKES
On a lighter note... I guess things are fine right now.. I can't be bothered no more. I'll try not to take things to heart I guess.... but you guys gotta stop testing my very limited patience. I mean like stop torturin my already tormented soul man... I so feel like not going to school tomorrow man. ARGGHH~~~ Fitness club is on... I'm on MC and i still have to go... what a life.. i mean mc from PE and stuff so that includes all sports... i hope my teacher doesnt announce my name tomorrow.. my first day to ever pon fitness and he had to chase us all for not goin. Darn.... I hope things turn out fine.. gotta go.
IN YOUR HOUSE.......I LONG TO BE
Life is so f***ed up. I can't take it. All the people I think I can trust and have fun with have yet again proven that they might not be as worthy as I thought. F**K... I so damn can't take it anymore. JUst leave me alone if you've got nothing nice to say. Jus F**K off ...... It's so damn irritating. So yeah I'm ugly and fat... and you know what? I dOnt F**kin hell give a damn, go on laugh make jokes.... laugh till ur heart content... compare me with your own self and laugh even more.... DO IT... coz I don't F**kin care... Because in the end, one who laugh last laughs best. F**K I hate myself because of you people... haven't you had enough?
IT'S MY PARTY AND I'LL DIE IF I WANT TO... DIE IF I WANT TO... DIE IF I WANT TO... YOU WILL DIE TO IF IT HAPPENED TO YOU