The big news today.. the government decided to close all schools from primary to jc/ci after the outbreak of SARS claimed it's first victim. It all seems so unreal.. the last time school life was affected was when the haze hit our continent really badly. Even then it was only cancelling our PE lessons. Not the entire week of school. It's kinda good but bad at the same time... we have to make up for that during the June school holidays. How fun... As fun as it might sound... I think it's kinda scary and upsetting that school stop because ppl are suffering. All this no school coz of illness thing sounds like something that come right out of a movie. It's really unbelievable.
My CG ( civics grp- kinda like the equivalent of classes in secondary school ) has a new guy today. Oh by the way I'm in CG 103 and my so called relative Asran is in that CG as well only he's takin a different combination from me. Well back to this new guy... He's actually kinda cute.. but he's attitude at the moment is getting on the nerves of me and some of my CG mates. One of my CG mate Gary, ( I took to him from the second day... i tot he was arrogant at first ) he looks exactly like TORO from the Taiwanese boyband ENERGY, especially from the side. Well you don't have to know who he is anyway. Some of my OG mates from orientation who saw us say we're best friends hahah.. and we only know each other for only like three days. We go for breaks together n sit with each other during lessons including Jessica and Diana. Jess shares my b'day date only she's a yr older. Other than that Gary and me would be talkin bout voluntaring ourselves into the student council and stuff. Strange how we click. He reminds me of my so called good friend Kenneth from secondary school. Gary is into journalism as well. Only his is broadcast.
I think I'm slowly settling down into the new environment and stuff. It's hard but I'm really trying. I met my Econs tutor and lecturer today. The tutor is this corny teacher Mr Raj kinda ok lah.. i prefer him ten times better than the lecturer Mr Lai. He's even lamer. Hahah Well i guess I'll stop now. I'm not sayin Im fully settled in school or anything like that or that i like it alot. I'm trying hard to overcome this feeling that I'm having of wanting to cry not continuing. That's it for now i guess. Ciaozz....
~~~HEAL THE WORLD .. MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE... FOR YOU AND FOR ME AND THE ENTIRE HUMAN RACE~~~
Today went much better.. at least I guess. I actually cried my eyes out the previous night. I don't really know why. I guess I miss the old school and all. I think I'm really stupid to cry over this kinda stuff. I guess this time it's gonna be a really short entry. Gotta go.
With all that's going on in this world right now... I join the rest of the citizens of planet earth in the quest for peace, I do realise however that no matter how much we try to fight for peace, unless the political power would hear our heed... there can be no such thing. There's still hope out there however, I think we should take this time to pray for the safety of the people involved in the war and for the whole thing to end soon. I think this can be catergorised under the same devastating list as the Sept 11 attack. I do believe it's just as bad. It's been five days, it's about time that they talk things out and stuff. In this year and age.. war isn't exactly very nice. Nice isn't even supposed to be describing that.
Well anyway, back to me. Officially started my first day in OUTRAM today. The building is so old... the National Heritage Board should preserve it or sumthing. HAHAH.. so far the only thing I like is the 2 dolphin fountains at the pond near the drive way. The rest of the school is so.. I dont even know how to describe it. The windows are like old kampong house windows... without the grills.. exactly how kampong schs would look like. It's so plain weird and old compared to all the new schools the government is building now. In short it's ancient.. like it survived the world war or sumthin.
I guess it takes time for me to get use to the new environment. Can u imagine I actually preferred JI? Maybe it's coz I made lotsa nice frens there and all. So I'll jus let time take it's course and see how things goes. However, since now I dont really like the place n school... I should jus concentrate on doin well and getting out of the school fast. As for superman.. time heals all wounds.. not sayin that Im over it or anything but I guess I'll have to at a point of time. Ciaozz for now though.
~~~TO HAVE PEACE FOR ONESELF... ONE HAVE TO FIRST FIGHT THE ENEMY WITHIN~~~
Ok I officially jus woke up bout half an hour ago... it's now almost 11am. Anyway straight from the horse's mouth.... I am officially an Outram Institute student. HAHAHA... I am.. I mean that is if I register on Monday. God.. I'm gonna officially be a walking Hello Kitty doll, a fat walking Hello Kitty doll.. You should know why.
Superman on the other hand got into Serangoon Junior College. Don't ask me how I know. I just.. well let's just say..... I just found out. At least we're thrown almost on the same side of the island. You know what I mean? We can like bump into each other or sumthin.... one can only hope. Like the other time for the 3 mths... I was in JI and he in CJC.. I pass his school everytime I'm on my way to mine. This time it's almost bout the same. How I wish I will pass him by or something. Anyway gotta go.. ciaozz
~~~NO..NO..NO..NO I DON'T NEED NOBODY..... ANYONE TO TAKE YOUR PLACE BUT YOU...NO..NO..NO..NO...I JUST COULDN'T FALL FOR ANYONE NEW...... NOBODY BUT YOU~~~
I don't think I have a secret or anything.. but I don't think I want anyone to know yet... coz I never do this sort of thing... I know it's no big deal but I guess I won't talk bout it yet.... So I'll jus keep mum.. only some know. Ok enuff bout that crap teeheee..
If you don't understand what I'm talking about it's ok really, I don't intend on anyone to know.. If u do know jus keep it to urself till i decide to tell ppl.. though I doubt u'd know but anyway jus keep mum if you do. Anyway tomorrow actually planned to go to Orchard with my mum to go get her stuff.. I totally forgot that I'm suppose to check my posting results online.. guess we'll go after that or not go at all.. Wish me luck ppl... for the posting I mean.
My niece and her parents have to gone to Malaysia coz her dad's gonna watch the F1 thingy.. I do hope FERRARI wins.. ok ok McLaREN... well both of them. I hope both teams get either of the top spot. They're gonna get to see my currently nameless new niece. Sigh~~ wonder if she has a name yet. I'm so sick.... I was listening to WESTLIFE with my cousin today and an image of SUPERMAN flashed across my mind. YEah.. just when I thought I'm over it. I hope I don't whine bout him to anyone to much.. or they'll jus get irritated by that. It's just that, I dunno... I just can't bring myself to call him after what's happened so far. Call me a coward.. I don't mind.
I know what had happened before is no big deal.. but like i said countless of times before .... I've no confidence... especially not in myself. I'm thankful that I'm born without anything wrong with me... (except maybe obesity... whoops..) but I guess.. I'm not like other girls who're so out there. I'm not like that enuff to actually have to courage to call him.. ask him how he is, how well he did and where's he's goin. I just can't. Which was why I asked Azlin to help me. I hope she can. Will let u know if she does.. for now I'm gonna knock out. Will write later.
~~~FEAR OF REJECTION.... KEPT MY LOVE INSIDE.... TOLD MY HEART I DIDN'T WANT YOU... BUT I LIED~~~
Remember my cousin with the 7th baby? I suggested to her eldest daughter( who's 1 or 2 yrs older than me ) to name the youngest so far RAIMI SHAHEERA... like the sound of that... hahaha. There's a perfectly nice explanation for that as well. The rest of the kids, girls mainly have the name Raimi at the front, except for the only boy. Here's the list.
1. Raimi Shazni
2. Raimi Shakira
3. Raimi Shafiqah
4. Raimi Shadiaah
5. Raimi Shahmin
6. Shahmi Rusyadi ( the only boy)
7. Currently nameless.....
see what i mean? I love calling either one of them by their full names... hahhaha anyway gotta go now. I need to continue planning something. See ya....
~~~DAY AFTER DAY... TIME PASS AWAY... AND I JUST CAN'T GET YOU OFF MY MIND~~~
Slept over at my sister's for two days. Should have gone home yesterday with my niece and sis but something cropped up at home. NEWSFLASH.. My cousin in Malaysia gave birth to her 7th baby.. a baby girl I heard... on the same day my sister celebrated my birthday. Well anyway... I have to go for now.. I'm darn hungry.. haven't eaten since I got up
AN EMPTY STREET..AN EMPTY HOUSE.. A HOLE INSIDE MY HEART...~~~
Yet another day spent at my sister's. Today we're havin pizza for supper. HEHE no wonder I never lose weight... all that junk food is jus piling the pounds. Sigh~ I wonder why women, girls, ladies well whatever else that falls in that catergory always tend to feel insecure about their weight, our weight. Funny ain't it? Look at the guys.. most of them and I'm sayin most, they pig out without caring. Why should we care? I guess it's not fair.
Well that issue aside...I'm kinda bored... I'm gonna plan something with my sis. Hopefully it will work out well. I know I know, my blogger entries keep getting shorter and shorter these days... maybe that's coz I haven't had many interesting happenings lately. So hopefully the next time would be better.
Hey...Sephia...blah blah blah~~~
I'm so sorry I haven't written for awhile... been pretty busy lately and when I'm online.... the only thing I do is chat with my sis. Pretty boring I know, but that's how I get by. I'm at my sister's place right now, Azlin just left... it was fun havin her around.. despite the fact that she ganged up with my sister against me. So not fair.. she's suppose to be my friend. HAHAH kidding~ Right now I don't really know what to say except I didn't go to school again on Friday.... that's officially one whole week!! Really the champ of champs. I guess from now on.. I won't be talkin bout guys... not the one I like so to speak. I guess it's not important. I don't mind having them as friends though, coz I seem to be able to talk to the opposite sex more often than not... That however, doesn't mean that I'm flirtatious or anything. I know where I stand and people like shouldn't be doing that kinda stuff.
So as I was saying... I do connect with guys.. but as frens and they seem to like talkin to me...hahha ok ok ok that's an overstatement. I have equal guy and girl friends... very well balanced... well I'm off to go plan stuff right now. Will write again soon.
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN SOMEONE DON'T LOVE YOU.... THEY SHOW YOU ALL THEIR FEELINGS LIKE YOU'RE A FRIEND..LIKE YOU'RE A FRIEND
WHAT DO YOU SAY WHEN THINGS DON'T GO YOUR WAY.. AND YOU'RE FROZEN IN A PICTURE LIKE YOU'RE A FRIEND.... LIKE YOU'RE A FRIEND~~~
I'm so not in the mood to continue where I last end. I guess I shall just let time and nature take their course. I shouldn't force anything. I'm as what Lin would say... the CHAMPION OF CHAMPIONS.. today is the third day I skip school and my mum doesn't really mind. That's not exactly her but I suppose she let me off coz I have a bad leg. Life is so good~~~
I kinda miss my secondary school friends. I never was the sort of person to skip school not till lately. I'm not sayin my new friends are not worthy or anything like that.. maybe the subjects that I'm takin now plays a part as well. I like my new frens and all but I do miss the old ones... We shared so many stuff.
I suppose I'll go now and write again soon
DARLING PLEASE DON'T TREAT ME LIKE A FOOL.. IT'S BEEN ENUFF HARD FOR ME GETTING OVER YOU...... SO DARLING PLEASE DON'T TREAT ME LIKE YOU DO.. I'D BE DAMNED IF I'M GONNA LET YA... DAMNED IF I DON'T FORGET YA... SO DARLING PLEASE... DON'T TREAT ME LIKE A FOOL~~~
Before I cover up the events that I've been to like a real reporter does and turn my blog into my own so called internet newsletter for my friends, I'm going to address a very important situation. At least I think it is. There's a rift goin on between my 2 sistas. I seriously hope it won't affect what all four of us share. Firstly, I think Lin was jus being honest. Afterall that's her journal... so she's just pouring out her thoughts. Oh wait.. let me jus say that i'm not gettin involved or anything, I jus wanna try and resolve things and get them to see both sides. So I'll address Lin first since I knew her before I know Inda. As I was saying.. Lin was jus expressing her point of view. She is sensitive.. so's everyone... and maybe being a girl she can feel insecure.. Almost everyone does. However, I suppose Inda is a little sensitive these days coz of Aidil... I guess he's really intoxicating her... so Lin should have thought about writing it down in her blog coz we all know we check each other's. So that's what I think kak azlin. I understand jealousy can get to one who's in love.
As for Kak Inda, I think Kak Azlin was jus being honest.... and as we already know, she's very open. That's how she is we just got to tolerate that. That's what makes her Azlin, different from the rest of us. I guess we should respect what she has to say. You shouldn't have taken things to heart, to have what all four of us share is special... and sometimes we need to be open and honest with each other.. but I have to agree that sometimes being honest doesnt give us the right to jus say whatever we feel without considering the feelings of others. I'll continue this later coz i have to go...... so sorry,... mum's calling.
Here's what I forgot to say.... During PE today we had to do 1 round on the school's track. As I was running.. the girls behind me (my frens actually) started giggling.... I turned around and ask what they were giggling at and they pointed at my ass.. There was an ADIDAS logo (the 3 rectangles) jus above my butt. "SO cute sia...." was what they said bout seeing it.. what's cute girls? My butt or the logo or having the logo on my butt? HEEHEHEHE
Another embarrassing thing that happened was... we now have to gather in the hall before every PE lesson coz there were reports of missing items when we had to assemble at the basketball court. My fren Kana was all ready for PE in her shorts while I was still in my full uni. So on my way up the stairs i unhooked and unzipped my skirt and proceeded to pull it down.... I only pulled it down when I reach the top of the stairs and right there and then this grp of Pre-U 2 boys walked passed. They saw me so indecently exposed... it was so damn embarrassing *blush* They looked at me and gave me the raised an eyebrow look... I wish the floor would jus open up and swallow me or sumthin. Lucky for me my shorts were on properly. Spared me a little
Well I suppose for now that's all I can remember or say... will be checkin in soon.
I TRIED SEEING YOU POINT OF VIEW.... BUT I CAN'T PUT MY HEAD THAT FAR UP MY ASS~~~
I finally went to school today after 4 weeks of absence. HAHA some of my frens who saw me asked where I've been missing in action. Today I got calls from Inda and Azlin... both sounded really concern and disappointed in a way i guess- for me coz of what i posted earlier. It seems that madame moiselle ( hope i got that right ) here got the talents to write.. haha they say they felt my pain. COOL HUH? Anyway I hope to write more meaningful stuff in the future, other than my emotions and thoughts. Maybe then you guys can shout out your views on the tag board. Oh by the way thanx Kak Azlin for the tag board.
School was actually pretty fun today, during PE- after so long of skipping that lesson- my class girls played basketball against some others. During lectures i totally slacked.... oh and I finally know the name of that guy from Victoria who's been playin soccer in my school field when I was in sec 3... I think his name is Boxuan David Stelzer. If i got the right person... he's actually my ex- classmate, Kevin's, classmate. Let's see... what else can I talk bout school today? Except that it was fun and we were practically joking about... I dunno what else.. you gotta be there to know it. I think i feel much better today compared to yesterday. STUPID PMS... MUAHHAHAH.....
I guess that's it for now...... I'll be updating this as much as I can.. I know today's stuff is a little on the boring side. So sorry.... hehe oh yeah for tomorrow's HIJRAH WALK inda said she might not be goin... i guess I won't go if she doesn't. Well really gotta go this time... CIAOZZ
I'VE BEEN DIETING FOR A MONTH... AND ALL I'VE LOST IS 30 DAYS~~~
I didn't go to school again today.. I woke up jus nice for morning prayers but a tat too late to get ready for school. I think i got up at bout 0655hrs.. my school is on the other side of the island, so there's no way i can get ready and reach school by 0730hrs. I helped my mum a bit but not much to make a difference i suppose. I think i made a mistake by putting OI arts in my first choice.... sure travel time it's much nearer to home.. but it's also very ulu... Furthermore, I'm already used to JI for the last 3 mths.... Sigh... should have tot bout this earlier. It's ok i guess i pray and hope im put in the best place there is for me.
I havent heard from inda and azlin for almost two days. I feel a tad miserable today.... maybe it's my weight again.. It's very hard setting up daily schedules to help me lose the pounds and not following it.... it's seriously stressful. I guess i'm just not too disciplined. But im tryin damn hard... it seems the only way i can up my confidence level is if i lose weight.. then i know i can carry myself well without having to think that ppl might laugh at me or call me a klutz or sumthing. Coz right now.. that's what im feeling most of the time.... I'm thinkin bout my future as well...im kinda feeling a little let down right now..
I jus pray and hope i can go thru really losin weight this time.. sucks ....... I need help.. I know my blog says ALL IN DA LIFE OF A SUPER PRINCESS but i keep complaining and stuff.. well the name's just an oxymoron... for those of u who think it's such a big word... GO TAKE A DICTIONARY and look it up... at least i think the word is in there.. if not i wont bother to explain. You either know it or you don't hahahah... kiddin... im jus not good at explaining... well i guess that's it for now.
I'M ACTUALLY A PERFECT SIZE 10..... I JUST KEEP IT COVERED IN FAT SO IT WON'T GET SCRATCHED~~~
It's seriously late and i can't sleep.... Sometimes when i think bout my frens at sunday school and how they keep talkin bout their guy frens and all... i do feel kinda left out. I've no one to talk bout so passionately.. that's excluding my family. I do speak bout SuperDuper Man but it's different. There's nothing there to talk bout in the first place.. all there is, is how he sometimes looks at me- or at least i hope that's not my imagination- get what i mean? I know it's really useless to talk bout it coz nothing will really come out of it but i just cant.
I am thankful that i'm born complete and all.. but i cant help feeling that im not it... today i had a blast though... inda and azlin came over and to me i tot i had a whale of a good time... i guess that was the time i felt that i am well liked by others, not just my family. I seriously dunno wat to talk bout anymore now. All i know is i blew my chance to talk to superman and i dunno when i might get that chance again. I seriously miss those times he talked to me... i felt really special.. i was practically the only girl he spoke to in school... who cares if he treated me like one of da guys when he spoke to me.. at least he did. Better than having him ignore me like now. I know i wrote him letters and all.. and sms-ed him so i suppose that day when he saw me in school to collect our results he expected me to walk over and talk to him like i always do. I didnt though... i did see him saw me.. but i didnt give a hoot coz i was more paranoid bout my results. I guess that was the last chance and i blew it. Can't blame him for thinkin that i will go over to him instead of the opposite since im the more outspoken one.
I think he won't ignore me if our classmate hadn't done anything... I guess that's it for now. Nitez
I think I know why superman is hard to forget... he's actually been around since I was in sec 1.. no wonder it's so hard.. Anyway life goes on. Who the hell cares i guess i can see him again soon. For now im trying to get over my O level results. My niece is growin tall... not fat... unlike me hehehe that's it for now i guess.